A lot of times I just tell myself to keep going besides all of the shit I'm facing right know like I have the every fucking right to give up everything and just live like a zombie and with this kind of brain I would be just living fine ass life no pain in the ass BUT I NEVER WANTED THAT LIFE . FROM THE BEGINNING ALL I HAD WAS MOTIVATION AND AMBITION NOW I HAVE CONTROL BUT SOMETIMES LACK OF MOTIVATION TO THE FUTURE ME READING IT HOPE YOU MAKE IT MAN HOPE YOU SUCCEED.
And also I have reached a 7 day streak on my Networking lessons and I am forcing myself to move further It's kinda hard but worth the effort.
Hey guys been a long time Currently working on switching to Windows and dual boot as my mentor said and also I will switch to linux mint because I don't really need kali as my main distro so cya I'll update later
Currently I have found a new youtuber that I really started to think about how interesting my future job could be like You can do whatever you want you can exploit any game , app or even real life people these days all use techs just finding flaws in them would make you same as literal god and you can get better too NO LIMITS
Talking about subjects and school and all that I skip my classes and don't listen to teachers so I can study at home? Kind of absurd but I like doing that
Today I was unlucky, because my VPN didn't work and I skipped a class. I am sad too I don't know why exactly but I guess because of my self overload I couldn't make my day today I will do better tomorrow. Sorry future Me.
Today I got my haircut which had fit me pretty well I guess that's only my opinion so far. Also I really don't want any friends from on like I have a doubt that I have too many of them. Idk Future me If you're reading this please Reply.
I finally set up my daily time stamps which includes : 4 hours of studying (will take some time to get used to) , At least 3 blog updates , Moment of rest (laziness) for myself and sleeping at around 11 PM . I know that I should have included there a workout too, but it's now winter and you know it's cold (bro be lying to himself fr) . So I gotta save that all money to get myself a new pair of headphones because mines literally hurt my ears so I must invest in a comfortable headphone or a lamp I wish I had a desk but current environment doesn't let me have it somehow.
So this is the day 3 of me after how I started learning about Networking and really working on myself, today I finally found my mentor, It's a guy whom I met at discord. So he just told me to really try to understand everything around me how things happen how the life is interesting when you know how much mind blowing stuff is happening around you simple having to build a lock screen with a password requires insane coding and working and debugging I can't even talk about the engineering part , For my future self JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE KNOWING ALL !
Today was a good day tbh I kinda enjoyed spending time with my dad like we bought him clothes and it was all fun walking and chilling around clothing stores I looked some parts for myself to buy in the future for a trip with dad it was really good.
I take back what I have said about learning networking actually when you explain it to somebody and really get in touch and connect the dots You get a very good satisfaction feeling. Will catch on later
It's currently the day 2 of me learning Networking and stuff and this is hard bro, that Indian guy's voice is echoing inside my brain but he damn well explains good
You gotta be kidding me this is ridiculous. Just people surrounding me are complete fucking dumb and numb . I'm starting to sound crazy again bruh.
Today I was busy all day couldn't wait till I get to my daily learning process and tomorrow I have my classes starting and I don't really know how im gonna fit that all in in day like there is my dad who's I don't know what's his problem but constantly poking me around like c'mon I already got enough shit to accomplish.
My dad is an asshole This my current status update on what I think of person I live with.
Why do you think that is? Is it because this sucker was hated by his own parents or because he is emotionally unstable . That's up his name I don't really fucking care
I think its time for me to stop worrying about how I'm going to organize things. And should start making things instead of waiting for an idea to land on my head lmao and also guys do not date its not good for the health
I just wanted to say the reason I blog is because I don't give a slightest fuck about what others could possibly think of me and also writing your thoughts are way easier way to relax and I like to share my ideas and passion and news yeah the news that happen in my life so that's it.
